When I first opened up to a colleague at work about my depression and anxiety, their response was:
“Are you sure you’re depressed? You’re supposed to be sad all the time when you’re depressed”
The response shocked me. I didn’t realise people actually thought that.
Depression isn’t feeling sad all the time, it’s many other things (which I won’t go into).
But I do have some good days or even just good moments.
Yesterday was a good day, I had my fourth CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) session and it has started to feel like I am finally getting somewhere, understanding a little more each session and knowing that I can do something about all the negative thoughts in my head has given me a boost. I still have a long way to go but I know that there is a way I can help myself.
I have also been doing more reading and self help online. Other blogs, books, listening to podcasts and apps.
When I was first diagnosed (approx 1 year ago), my GP told me about some of these but I was always too sceptical to even try.
I was so convinced that there was no way to get me out of this ocean of sadness that I was drowning in.
But they really do help, I am not on the shore yet, but I am now staying afloat.
Here are a couple of resources I have found most useful (I will talk about more in later posts):
Headspace app: a meditation app. I have found this to be really helpful.
If you told me a year ago that meditation would help I wouldn’t have believed you but having that 10 minutes to just be at one with your mind, has a power I will probably never understand.
www.liveinthepresent.co.uk : this website has The Self Help podcast and a very well written blog with lots of topics. It also has a ‘Mindfulness kit’ that you can download for free which has two books and some meditation MP3s. I read about this on someone else’s blog and I am so glad I chose to explore the website, with lots of help and advice about living in the present and not worrying about past or future.
Music: Music has helped me a lot, not even upbeat, happy music. Have you ever listened to a song and it’s almost like you wrote the lyrics? Even if it makes me cry at the time. Music that I can really relate to. It makes me feel understood. Here is one song that has a deep meaning to me.
Biffy Clyro- Opposites
Has anybody else got some good self help resources for depression and anxiety?